I have a complicated relationship with Joy. Like many humans, I have had moments of exhilarating joy in my life. Like many Christians, my greatest moments of joy have been those ripe with the presence of the Holy Spirit, fresh on an intimate interaction with the One who loves me most, Jesus. Nothing on Earth quite compares to the loving presence of God- that stuff fills you up in every crevice with an ecstasy that’s otherworldly and everything else dims by comparison. But, like every human, I’ve also had moments of deep sorrow, from the loss of a sibling to separation from loved ones and great disappointments that took me by surprise. Oh, how often life does not go as planned and feels lonely and sometimes empty and sends us searching.